(0:01) Some thoughts on the entanglement wept out in reality. (0:10) I had a conversation with K, considering whom of our friend's group is in fact a higher educated academic, a grade 7 or grade 8 academic. (0:23) It's only men in our closer environment.(0:30) Even more precarious it becomes when regarding who are these men. (0:38) Not only they are born millionaires. (0:44) They are white, but I understand this is a consideration coming along by the fact that we are living in Bavaria, a place without people of color. (0:59) I had a conversation with my mother this afternoon where she refers to a woman that apparently has been in school with me, but only after I got kicked out of the good school and went to lower eduction. (1:13) This woman, as my mother says, seems to be "very lucky," to quote my mom, because in first place, as she is two years younger than me, she has two children, has built a house that is worth supposedly more than a million euro. (1:32) And: "just because she does not like the location she relocates to a village really close by." (1:38) Some would say this is a rich people problem. (1:42) And my mother says: "yeah, but everything seems to fly towards her. Not only that she was allowed to pick the particular cell where they want to build a new house on, she also already has found a flat for the duration of building the house" ... and so on and so forth. (2:01) It becomes clear with the passage of time that my mother has not one scent regarding the fact that these people are born rich. (2:15) When she says: "yeah, but she is not working, she is in motherhood, and yet she is somewhat rich" in reality my mother means: she does some little bit of home office for the factory of her father. (2:24) I think it becomes very clear she has been born a millionaire as well, but also as a woman. (2:30) Of course middle or generally lower educating school is fine. (2:35) There is no wealth to be acquired within an own career, right? (2:41) The self-esteem comes by breeding the next generation that will inherit this wealth. 
(2:49) I am explaining to my mother that I am circled in my life by millionaires and that this isn't something to celebrate, as it comes almost automatically by being higher educated. (3:05) Considering this, it is to be said that only 10% of the people finishing a higher degree are from non-academic families. (3:17) Which means 90% are. (3:23) May today the liberalisation of education be a bit more visible, it is not more equal, right? (3:32) It becomes clear that with rising up in the academic level, the surrounding executes itself as a more and more wealthy environment. (3:44) Emotionally I understand what my mother means when she is a bit jealous about the peeks of my boyfriends and that she believes I am dating above my standard. (3:55) If it's about finances of course I do, but who else can I date that is poor? (4:00) Considering that this 10% of non-academic people ending up in academia are even less women, who am I supposed to find? (4:18) If I would want to meet another non-academic parented children with a master degree, just to run a conversation that is stimulant enough to me, I am falling under a burden of, let's say, less than 3% if I want to kiss a girl. (4:39) Where to find these people?, I might ask. (4:42) The majority, if they study to the master, study it to acquire wealth, because this is the status quo of a man. (4:57) You work to create wealth. (5:01) We are still in a very gendered society: the girl is studying to become whatever, maybe to be intellectually stimulating to her husband when she is home being a mother, a man studies to expand wealth. (5:17) So, thinking one step further, being a woman, and wanting an academic partner, that (if not being a woman, being a man) is not studying for rising up the ladder of financial career, it becomes even more marginal to find somebody that's not wealthy. (5:40) Besides the fact that men, in general, are more wealthy than women. (5:46) It's the needle in the straw bucket, and it's almost impossible. (5:53) While though they (men) kind of decorate themselves with the poor girl: "she cannot afford this, she cannot afford that (I can take care of it), she's so cute" right? (6:04) So, what can I do? I can date a non-academic person, but without arrogance, my intellect is too big to sit opponent somebody that crafts all day things for somebody else. (6:23) Considering what's my next step in career, a PhD, there is almost nobody beside me with my educational path. (6:37) So, what am I supposed to do besides dating a millionaire? (6:44) Staying single for the rest of my life? (6:49) Independent if I like women or men, but is this the future? Or to date an actor that again is rather doing art for the money? Excuse me, but the Hollywood lobbyism is fame and money and not deep purpose and self-realization. (7:11) It's another kind, clearly, but it's neither non-academic nor anything. (7:21) And it's impossible to educate my mother on this, that it is inherent that I am dating a millionaire, if I want or not. (7:32) No, I have a choice, it's not if I want or not, because I want dating, not a millionaire though. (7:42) Because look around, this is impossible, which carries such a loneliness, because I got expelled off the field where I'm coming from, while I get neither accepted in the field I'm aiming for being. (8:02) I cannot do a PhD in philosophy because you need the full set of having studied philosophy, but question in return, which family from my class would allow a study in philosophy? And yes, of course, we are full-aged, we can choose our studies ourselves, but who would choose a job above mother love? (8:29) It's a joke. (8:32) It's simply a joke. (8:35) So we do, if we do something creative, most likely (8:38) we study, like me, something like architecture or anything  alongside that sustains you alive.(8:47) And after that (8:48) we are either already (8:50) devastated by the understanding that aside us these are all people (8:56) who are already the grandparents, have been architects or at least doctors of any kind. (9:04) What's left? (9:06) After that five years of study if we want to have a career (9:10) we need to start. (9:12) Because normally we have a study loan (9:14) to pay back.(9:15) BAföG was therefore never an option in my case. (9:20) And then I kept studying and I financed it with my first study and well done, quite clever one might say. (9:31) And I keep going and I keep going and I keep going and it becomes more and more and more lonely, right? (9:38) Because I'm (9:39) missing an actual (9:41) correspondence with somebody that understands my point of view and not from an external observatorium as Papa M for example does it, of course.(9:51) On the paper he gets it. (9:54) But how it feels to have a broken laptop and neither I can afford it nor my family can afford it nor do I get the bonita for actually buying a computer and understanding that the computer is my fundamental work object. (10:12) It's fucked.(10:15) It's a feeling that nobody can actually embed. (10:22) It's hilarious.(10:29) It's simply  hilarious. (10:39) Maybe it's my own fault that I didn't get myself non-academic (10:45) friends but by today I'm not even sure anymore where to find them. (10:49) Long-lasting bonds had been formed. (10:53) I can ask on the little counter girl you want to spend some time but then also there is no shared interest. (11:02) The thing is all of us go to little. (11:06) Some of us have worked in a supermarket. (11:08) Me for example. (11:18) And yet the little girl may she cognitively follow but she does not know how it is to go to a university where everybody smells by the way how you are speaking that you don't belong there because in the end we all speak the same language, right? (11:40) In our country at least. And then we understand that the vocabulary is quite aristocratic. (11:47) I have a dialect because my family cannot speak pure German. (11:54) This might apply to other families as well. However they at least learned speaking proper German. (12:03) I have never heard this language as a child. It's been dialect all around me. So by the age of 30 I am still having a dialect. And I am having it also in English. (12:15) Because I developed I get a way of speaking. (12:19) And it's reflecting through all the layers of how I communicate. (12:25) So I am learning and learning and learning vocabulary as an adult, right? (12:30) Okay, I have understood what the word phenomena is philosophically. (12:35) I know what aura means (12:37) and where the word aesthetic comes from. (12:40) And it's not an educational factor (12:43) because language everybody can learn. (12:45) Also my mother is simply remembering German vocabulary.(12:52) However she is not (12:53) exposed to it. And so we all speak the same (12:55) language.(12:56) But we don't use (12:58) the same vocabulary.(12:59) Which makes some of us superior and other of us inferior. (13:03) And this especially becomes visible as soon (13:05) as you need to present something in university. (13:09) Some people are melodic, poetic and eloquent while they are talking.(13:15) Where on the other hand (13:16) someone learned (13:17) rather to speak from the eye experience. (13:21) That in fact is (13:21) super little when you are from (13:23) the countryside with no (13:25) educational add-ons. (13:27) I mean I can barely swim.(13:30) Luckily I danced (13:31) ballet. Of course (13:40) I am not having an instrument as a (13:42) talent on my side. (13:46) Of course I did not grow up (13:47) trilingual.(13:49) I barely spoke English when I moved away. (13:52) If I would have understood that this is my(13:54) level of English I might have not moved away. (13:58) And the outcome is (13:59) that with 30 I have (14:01) the wrinkles (14:04) of a milieu.(14:06) I have the wrinkles (14:07) between my eyes because I cannot stop (14:09) wondering about(14:11) the environment. (14:14) And I observe (14:15) everywhere that thinking (14:18) is the exit.(14:21) Thinking is not for free.(14:24) It's not paid (14:25) either. (14:28) But thinking is (14:29) also not free. (14:31) And not just not for free.(14:33) Laws exist (14:35) on the basis of somebody (14:37) have been thinking. (14:41) While the whole milieu (14:43) accepts law and order as a given structure (14:45) as this would have arrived at a certain (14:47) day, at a certain time. (14:49) All at once.(14:52) And the more I grow up (14:53) and the more I am climbing this ladder (14:55) I understand it's (14:57) that laws get made (14:59) by people that have (15:01) a. the aristocratic background(15:03) and b. that think (15:05) about how to morph these laws (15:07) around themselves. (15:11) But then you are from the milieu and worse (15:13) you are a woman so your thinking is for free(15:16) for others to take. (15:19) While men (15:19) get educated that an idea (15:21) is something that you trade and that you (15:23) should be rather private (15:26) about your next vision (15:27) women are trained (15:29) into communication.(15:32) We understand that knowledge is a web (15:34) because this was the only given thing(15:36) to us over the last 200 years. (15:39) And this (15:39) web kind of a thinking (15:43) of course implies sharing. (15:46) If one woman cannot (15:47) exit the house and the other woman does not (15:50) have children of course they need to communicate (15:52) to actually share this(15:54) micro little bit of knowledge (15:56) that they actually have.(15:59) But then you are (16:00) one of these women that understands (16:01) everything is relational (16:03) especially in the milieu. You cannot pay your rent (16:06) or car or whatever, I can help you out (16:08) right? (16:09) I can help you out. (16:12) You need somebody to lift up (16:14) your car? Of course the neighbours (16:15) can help out.Because what? (16:17) They have time. (16:19) And if they would understand that time is such(16:21) an important resource (16:24) the most important (16:26) resource if you would use it (16:27) for thinking (16:29) rather than for observing yourself (16:32) or others (16:33) this would be an unstoppable milieu. (16:36) So of course (16:38) some people that think about (16:39) the milieu understand that they cannot (16:42) have it all.(16:43) Because they are a weapon (16:46) against this aristocracy. (16:50) And so (16:51) you dump them and you (16:52) numb them and you give them alcohol. (16:55) You give them cigarettes.(16:56) You give them a television that is so (16:58) cheaply affordable (17:00) that everybody gets himself one. (17:03) And then you (17:04) splash them with news that are (17:06) not really graspable for them. (17:08) Because what does it mean (17:10) that the EU funding (17:12) gets limited? What does it mean (17:14) to speak about billions if on your bank (17:16) account is never more than 1000? (17:19) You know the price (17:20) of a washing machine.(17:22) Others know the price of a Bentley. (17:26) It's milieu. (17:28) And it's so hard to drag (17:29) the milieu into these aristocratic (17:31) frames because (17:33) as soon as you enter academia(17:35) nobody wants to hear about this.(17:37) In art, yes, nice. (17:39) Let's get all entertained (17:41) by the subsufficiency. (17:57) Koti!(18:00) Koti! (18:01) Hey! (18:04) Koti! (18:05) Come here! (18:10) Back to subject.(18:16) In academia (18:17) nobody wants to hear about it. (18:19) Because as soon as a black person (18:20) enters academia, they are (18:22) speaking about colonialization (18:25) and where the term motherfucker comes from. (18:27) At that point I invite (18:28) everybody to go googling.(18:32) It's uncomfortable (18:34) because in the end (18:35) it's all our grandparents, right? (18:37) It's our grandparents (18:39) and might it be the parents of our grandparents (18:41) but in the end whatever. (18:43) Since humanity exists (18:45) we might have went through 220 (18:48) not since humanity exists (18:50) since we settled. (18:52) We might have walked (18:53) through 250 generations (18:55) that's not much (18:57) but even less is two generations.(18:59) You have it in your bones. (19:03) You are born (19:03) as an egg cell (19:06) six months(19:07) after your mother (19:09) got made. (19:12) Which also counts (19:13) for your mother.(19:15) So when you think about it (19:17) these colonizer people (19:19) may they have given birth(19:21) in 1890 (19:23) where officially everything is over, right? (19:26) Apartheid still keeps existing(19:27) but at least slavery (19:29) found an end. (19:32) If they got a baby (19:33) in 1890 (19:35) 1890 (19:38) since 1890 (19:39) this egg cell is an egg cell (19:41) so this egg cell (19:42) then produced a new baby (19:46) in 1920 (19:48) of course (19:49) it's all the DNA (19:50) also of this grandmother in it (19:53) and just to say aside (19:54) we all came from the legs (19:56) of a woman. It doesn't matter if you are a man (19:58) or a woman.You came (20:00) out to this world in the portal (20:02) between two legs (20:03) the two legs of a woman and not a man. (20:08) So (20:09) women carry (20:10) the lineage (20:14) men (20:14) destroy it. (20:21) Nobody wants to hear about it (20:23) because instead (20:24) of humble (20:27) humility (20:29) there is a spot (20:31) to defend.We learn (20:32) increasingly since the (20:35) archives are growing exponentially (20:36) about conquest (20:39) you need to conquest the university (20:41) but have you ever learned about(20:42) stepping back, giving something (20:45) of, away (20:47) saying yeah actually you're right(20:48) I have too much (20:50) I don't need that. There is (20:52) no philosophy on that (20:54) it's not established (20:56) in the mind of a society (20:58) and if we compare it with the ideologies(21:00) of rape we always wonder (21:02) how can it be that half of this world (21:04) is not actually executing (21:06) rape on a daily basis like the (21:08) western fucked society (21:10) it's because it becomes so (21:12) unthinkable in these societies (21:14) like cannibalism (21:16) would you eat a human in the western world (21:18) no you would not even think about it (21:20) but rape culture made this (21:22) thought accessible to everybody (21:25) and then (21:26) we believe it's in the man's (21:28) structure to rape, it's not (21:31) do it (21:32) once and the lion ladies (21:34) kill you(21:36) easily man (21:37) but then demorph the archives and let everybody (21:40) believe that period blood is something (21:42) so dangerous and that women (21:44) anyways are just hysterical(21:46) little monsters (21:47) that are not made for anything (21:50) besides cooking and birthing(21:51) and fucked, being (21:53) fucked and not fucking (21:57) have you (21:58) ever considered that all the insults (22:00) regard a woman (22:00) we cannot join the European (22:22) Union as a member of politics (22:25) just like (22:26) that, even if (22:28) it's given on paper (22:30) these laws were made by the (22:32) supremacy, do they know (22:34) how it feels when your (22:36) grandmother is more sick than (22:38) a normal grandmother because the food (22:40) that she eats is terrible (22:43) because the sport (22:44) she cannot do is because she doesn't know(22:46) what sport to do (22:48) you can put a little bicycle (22:50) for retired people in the city(22:52) and say yeah but it's her own fault (22:55) everybody is the master (22:56) of their own future (22:58) yeah or we think of the little prince (23:01) everybody is responsible (23:02) for it all(23:03) and not just themselves (23:07) so (23:07) back to the point of art (23:09) in art we get every now and then excited (23:11) right? oh (23:13) Basquiat, a black little (23:15) man arriving next to this wonderful (23:17) white indie wall that anyways (23:19) has it better than everybody else because (23:21) isn't he just floating (23:23) like David Bowie on the peak (23:25) of being accepted(23:27) it's like right now (23:29) we are establishing the queer community (23:31) and so for a micro (23:33) period of time you have it (23:35) easy being queer (23:36) because every call for paper says (23:39) we are preferring queer people (23:41) la la la (23:43) if you become queer right now you have nothing (23:45) to do with the revolution (23:48) not that you are not (23:49) allowed to be queer (23:50) but you cannot put it on your forehead (23:52) as having been fought for it(23:55) no you're profiting from a (23:57) right now established system (24:00) it's the same (24:02) with Basquiat and (24:04) indie wall in first place and  surplusing (24:08) turns out Basquiat has been rich (24:10) from the beginning because (24:12) although it's so unthinkable also black(24:14) people were trading black people also jews were trading and (24:20) trading jews you might have found your backdoor by selling your companies, when we look to academia as it's established since ever and ever in the aristocracy we know very much and we can very much confuse these two borders on behalf of thinking one is the other, rich is academia academia is rich because in 90% of the cases it's true and then it gives itself the feathers because of this micro notion of 10% saying no no no no no it's equal, it's for everybody question how would a gangster with an IQ of 150 come up with the idea of studying philosophy and not rather becoming a rapper doing similar philosophy but maybe earning money with it the chances to earn money with philosophy from academia might be bigger but how is he supposed to know his parents and worst case they are immigrants for the fact that then what are they explaining to him german philosophy is the thing you should do when you read Nietzsche and Kant and Heidegger and Schopenhauer and all of these people in the first year just to say but even Sigmund Freud is speaking about the Jews as they would be a secondary manner  how are we supposed to believe anything if this is the establishment running back some steps looking in my surrounding at all the academic men  that some of them do a PhD right, two of them even do one or did one in philosophy great, academic parents white men mediumly pretty skinny have learned a hobby the worst thing they did might have been taking some drugs or smoking a joint or taking some drugs but also the sentence of something else for mind expansion and never for doom dumping yourself hanging on the internet is research and not doom scrolling saving PDFs is for later and not hoarding while the difference is in fact invisible to any exterior but within their terms describing ever similar happenings this gets accepted why not this gets completely walked through seems believable seems believable that a woman that goes to university should pay 50-50